Friday, July 23, 2010

Purpose? naw...

The summer is going fast!
I have tons to write about with little time.

I'm almost done with this semester of summer school. Which i'm excited about, I'm graduating in December and i'll be thankful to be done.
Something kind of peculiar happened to me on Wednesday night during my senior seminar class. My professor, Prof Payne, was asking us to evaluate ourselves on a 6 dimensional scale and share with the person next to us. well that went fine, and then he started talking about our purpose in life, and asking people "what is your purpose in life"
Now - this is something i am very interested in and have spent an immeasurable amount of time and mental energy on. When i say alot of time, I mean alot, like... years.
So i raise my hand and ask (Prof. Payne and I have spent alot of time together)
"Are you actually asking what our purpose in life is?"
he replies with "Well, Yea"
At first, I'm in disbelief.
Then the peer to my left turns and says "I know what my purpose in life is"
I reply "Well thats fantastic, but i haven't a clue, I have ideas, but how would i know, What if my purpose in life is to have fun?
The class then asks "Would you be disappointed if having fun was your purpose in life"
I say "No, not at all, i just would want to know, so i could focus on that and not think about it anymore." Subsequently, there were other classmates who also said they knew their purpose in life. Maybe there are more people than i realize that have their purpose figured out.
This discussion goes on for a bit with other classmates and finally it hits me.
I believe my purpose in life is to EXPERIENCE NEW THINGS! New people, tastes, smells, feelings, sights, sensations, places. Everything! Diversity! I really enjoy it all.
In the past i've written about how a new bad experience is still beneficial. You felt something new, even if it was bad, it was something you have never experienced before. probably learned something at the same time too.
This explains it all. He He. This is what motivates me, new experiences.
I've also been learning how to achieve new experiences with only mental energy. Something that takes a lot of time and practice.
Anyways,
It was a nice epiphany (or perceived epiphany)
I believe worth sharing.

Disclaimer:
This doesn't really mean that i have anything figured out, i also will not forget that there is a good chance we have more than one purpose in life (i should hope so, one purpose seems a bit cheap, he)

Saturday, July 17, 2010

These Days

Well,

Unfortunately i have been too busy to write all summer. I have been struggling for a while to be able to continue to do things that i really want to do.
Yes, i want to finish school and graduate, yes i want to learn at my internship.
But really i want to read books on the beach, I really want to go for long bike rides and camp on the river. I really want to slay sunnies!
Fortunately i have been able to do some of that.
Some.
The summer will slip away soon.
Thats ok though
Seizing the day can happen any time of year


I am running the TC 10 mile again this year. My father got in this time too! I'm hoping my knee feels okay, i'll need to take precautions and stretch it properly.

Also, a few months ago i built a chicken coop.
With the help of the fabulous baker boys i'm a proud chicken farmer! I've got 5 hens that are doing well. We'll see how winter goes, i still need to insulate their coop. This has been a really fun project and i am really happy to have gone through with it.

This is the 2nd year i have had a community garden. It's going well but there's a learning curve, i have new ideas for next year. Always improving!

My internship will be done in 4 weeks now and i plan to play catch up on summer.
I'm talking to some people about a 100 mile ride (bicycle)
and i'd like to do a little bike tour and camp along the way, maybe only 3 days or something.
Camp V is planned for september, which i am really excited about. 4th year running?

Anyways,
i'm happy
sometimes i get stressed
but i'm happy
thats the goal
i hope you are too.